…a brief glance…

…so first week of uni, one would think it would be easy breezy right? first week and all… ummmm…. NO!!!! (she whines)

admittedly i was well excited for uni to start. aside from not having to be at work on the worst day of the week, i get to do that whole ‘uni student’ thing again. the moment my lecturer started going through the material, and what it involves, and the workload, the time investments…i believe i uttered the words ‘this whole higher education thing? my idea?’ … apparently it was.

don’t get me wrong, i am loving it. it was just a little bit of a rude awakening. i have two subjects and the average work load for each subject is 12 hours, per week. arrrgggghhhhhh!!! i have case studies, journals, etc to read, as well as online lectures to watch and online quizzes to do by the end of each week. head spin! but all good.

started going to my new connect group which is located at currans hill, only ten minutes away from home. all girls, and it was great to be in that environment again, where everyone is on the same path, and we’re all spurring each other on. it made me miss h’smith connect a lil less and think back on it with fondness instead of longingly.

griefshare has been going well. it’s been nice to hang out with j, and just fool around. reminisce about, etc. this week we’re supposed to bring a photo of our loved one, which i guess makes it more real for each of us…not like it isn’t, but i guess it’s all part of the healing process *sigh*

politics still bother me. i know it shouldn’t. but it does. i guess its that whole falling from grace and pedastal thing. if i did to them, they certainly did for me too. more so than i can express and that’s sad. i will never be able to articulate how much ‘events’ have hurt me. despite intentions to the contrary. so much for that.

today is winnie’s birthday and we’re all meeting in the city for dinner, which will be nice. happy 29th birthday winnie, you’ve crossed over. you’re now ann and mer’s age! 

tomorrow is ate lei’s birthday and we’re all going to dinner to celebrate her 40th. ate your list, it HILLARIOUS!

friday we’re going to finally bury my mom, which i guess closes the latest chapter. though it would be good to finally get everything settled, a part of me doesn’t want to part with her. but she deserves to be at her resting place,  and it’s like she’s never really left. she’s around, and she’s in all of us. i just miss her. the house seems empty, and i now know what she meant when she used to say that after i left for london. i have taken for granted the times we were able to talk, and her mere presence in the house *sigh*

 …another day…