May 03
…Warrior Princess Daughter…
Posted by Elisa on Wednesday May 3, 2006 Under UpdatesWhat an amazing weekend at Colour! I don’t think words can even begin to express what it was like. The whole experience was phenomenal, and it wasn’t the big things but the many little things that made the atmosphere that was very prominent.
For me, Colour brought a mixture of emotions, admittedly, most of which involved tears. It was hard to not appreciate what you had, however big or little you thought you had. It was like a two day journey that released you from whatever chains kept you bound. Allow release, you allow healing. Allow healing, you allow love. You learn to love yourself and who God created you to be. Learn to love yourself, you are empowered to face everything with God’s strength, as the Warrior Princess Daughter he has created us to be.
As I sat blubbering beside one of my closest friends on the first day, being sadwiched between two of the most amazing friends I have been blessed with on the second day, and being able to share numerous moments with a number of prominent women I do life with, I couldn’t help but weep?and weep I did. As Crystal would atest to, and much to my horror there may even be footage of it? I couldn’t help but be in awe of how God has blessed me so.
Back in Sydney I am blessed with amazing Women in my life, each for their own reasons. My Mom would definitely rank as one of the strongest people I know. After everything, she has remained the matriarch in our family, forever the one taking care of everyone else, despite how hard it is for her. Determined to meet the need of everyone else before hers. Everything she has ever done for us kids, and those she loves in her world, roots from her heart and her longing to provide for all the needs she is physically able to.
My sister is always someone I looked up to, and not just in the literal way either. My sis was and always be like Mini Mom. She took care of all of us, and still does. Growing up, aside from thinking she was like the biggest pain in the butt, I always admired how she was always so responsible and wise. More than anything what always struck me about my sis is her bravery. I guess she gets that from my Mom. I have always believed that my sis can take on the whole world and win?I still do.
My Mom and my sister are two of the strongest people I know, and I can’t help but feel lucky, because if they’re that strong, then I have that strength in me too. After all, it was their courage that inspired me to come to London without the safety nets. It was a challenge I needed to meet, that I wouldn’t have without their support.
I have an awesome circle of friends back home?my Posse, who each in their own way have always and continue to shape who I am as a friend. Their friendship, our moments of hilarity and chaos, is what has helped shaped me as a friend and sister. Through good times and bad, through time and distance?the dynamics of each Posse remain.
?but while at Colour, my tears welled up as my eyes glanced around the 3000 capacity auditorium and my gaze fell on numerous people, as memory crept into my mind and heart. I fell to pieces. God has not only blessed me with amazing people in my life in Sydney, but also in London. It is because of these people I have learned to call London home. For if not for them, London would just be a cold city.
It hit me that as prepared and as excited as I was to be going home, I would be leaving such a huge part of me here too. How awesome is God that he surrounds us with the people who will impact our life in such a way. That his Love is so great that he provides for all our needs. Especially our emotional and spiritual ones!
As I hugged a friend for the first time in what seemed like forever, I couldn’t help but be brought to tears as the moments we shared came flooding in. The laughter, the tears, the dinners, the movies, and significant moments we shared in our season together.
I remember hugging many amazing people (all whom I love dearly) that evening, but four of them made me lose it. Thanks a lot guys! (not to any fault of their own by the way) You know who you are, I’m sure your shirts are still wet from the dam I shed?I just want to say Thank you for allowing God to use you in such a way in my life that your impact was so great, that it led me to be such a blubbering mess!
?the rest of the weekend was less emotional. It was a fantastic day in the house of God on Sunday, as usual. My kids are as cute as always.
Monday was a very welcomed Bank Holiday Monday?.recovery day! Slept till late, and headed to Greenwich Park for a Picnic. Had a great day with friends!
So much was imparted this weekend, the challenge is to apply it and rise to the challenges ahead?.
May 3rd, 2006 at 10:19 pm
I’m proud of you couz! 🙂
God is an awesome God! 🙂