…a brief glance…

That face pretty much explains it all really. This is what I currently look like while at work. Consensus tells me so. Admittedly, it’s one of my favourite pictures, as it looks like a friend! Except doggie has more hair.

Well, as my sister rudely pointed out today I only have a few months left till my VISA expires. The nerve hey, forcing me to face reality as I unashamedly deny such claims…I wish. Despite my efforts to the contrary, plans for the coming months have been forming in my head. Possibilities, Opportunities, Possible Direction have somewhat been swimming in my head for the last month, it has consumed me in an indescriable way, when I was trying NOT to think about it, I was. Not to say I was panicked or anything, for I truly believe in the purposes and plans God has in stored for me, and totally welcome it. The lil ‘unknown’ planner in me just wanted to get the ball rolling.

One of the most overwhelming things with regards to this is the fact that I had no Plan B. I was holding on to the sheer hope that I would get sponsored by HC…judging from the COMPLETE lack of communication anywhere in this company and the blatant dead pan responses I was getting for my plea to get out SWITCHBOARD, it was CRYSTAL CLEAR that I had to entertain the thoughts that maybe doors were closing for me for a reason…and I needed to address that POSSIBILITY, and PRONTO.

As I sat here at my desk, literally and figuratively banging my head against the wall from FRUSTRATION, BOREDOM and sheer ANNOYANCE a voice pretty much spoke in my ear. “What if you go home? What will you do? Entertain THOSE possibilities, and I did.

This is what evolved?

If I don’t get sponsored, and quite frankly I don’t want to be sponsored doing the CRAP I am doing right now. It’s almost as challenging as ‘Would you like some Fries with that?’?it’s doing my head in! *sigh* I digress!

Anyways?If it turns out that my Visa reaches its completion without an extention, then I can spend the next few months traveling, and doing all the things I need and want to do. As well as start shipping stuff home, and trust me, I have accumulated way too much ‘VALUABLES?’ in my short time here. I want to travel in my last month, so hopefully HC will at least keep me till the end of May! *insert image of banging one’s head here* After that, spend my last couple of weeks with my dear friends, doing the *gulp* the Goodbyes. Then head back to Sydney. Try and find a job, work my butt of for 8 months before going back to Uni to either do my Graduate Diploma in Education and specialise in Early Childhood (Nursery School Kids) or do the 3 year degree specialising in that field at the University of Wollongong. Yes, I have missed the sunshine and the beach?don’t know where you guys get that idea from? Hopefully the graduate diploma thing is all I need to do the Early Childhood, but I wouldn’t mind doing the whole Uni thing again, seeing as I would finally be doing what I want to do. (segway: Amachi, do you need a Trainee Assistant for a few months?)

That’s pretty much how far I have gotten with Plan B. Which admittedly, I am not completely opposed to. As I said, if doors are closing for a reason, then I need to make the decision to close it and follow the doors that are open for me. At the end of the day, if I study teaching, whether for a year or three years, at the end lies a career.

More than anything I am enjoying every moment to it’s fullest potential. I have run my idea past my Mom, and my sis, and a couple of friends. I have been discussing these possibilities with my closest friends here, whom, despite for the obvious reasons would be opposed to it, have been super supportive. Some are more reluctant than others.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t want to go back, and it’s not that I want to leave. For now, I am trying to be sensitive to the greater plans and purposes that is paved for me and just listening for the direction in which I am supposed to take. I’m not partial to one more than the other, both holds strong arguments.

I have totally enjoyed my time here, and I have loved the people who have been positioned in my life. It amazes me how one circumstance has led to another.

Anyways?more thoughts later!