Greetings! It’s Saturday night, and in less than 12 hours I have to be back at Blackfriars for my first Kid’s Church session as part of TEAM! I am excited!
In saying that I have hit a period tonight that made me incredibly homesick. Though the timing is way off by now, Mer celebrated her Hen’s night Saturday evening. I haven’t heard on how it went, but I’m sure it was great. After tonights service I went straight home but as I got out of the station, I felt the urge to take a walk. I figured it was good excuse to check my e-mail, perhaps BLOG…so here I am.
As I walked I talked to myself, well to God I guess. I felt overwhelmed with sadness. I missed out on one of my oldest and dearest friends Hen’s night. The reality of having to miss out on the most important day of her life hit me like a ton of bricks. I actually started crying. Hormonal you think? No, that was last week! I guess it’s only hitting me now that I won’t be home for a few months. That Mer’s wedding isn’t the only important occassion I will be missing out on. It isn’t the only big event that I won’t be able to participate in.
I still believe that this is where I am meant to be. That I have so much ahead of me, and I love that. It’s just it hit me today, how much I miss everyone back home. My family. My friends. I miss the friends that have known me for so long that they read me so well. When I talk to Jes she cracks me up because she uses sentences like ‘okay, if this wasn’t involved, would it still affect you in such a way’ … like hello, what was that? Or when I talk to Ann in midsentence, and she gets what I mean. I don’t know what I’m trying to say. I guess being so far away from home at this point is starting to feel… sad.
I wish I could have been there to have dinner at the Roxy, party all night and stay at the Marriott with the girls. I miss my girls.
As much as I am loving this journey, moments such as these creep up and I get homesick. My Mom has such uncanny timing because she called me! I so appreciated hearing her voice. Just that piece of home I needed.
Anyways…I guess I just needed to let that out. Thanks for reading.